Some random thoughts I penned years ago..

My eyes say something,

Smiles speak the rest,

Roses in the vision,

Candles all around…

Sharing feelings, thoughts,

And talks that never end.

Moments some unforgettable,

Words which mean a lot,

In your glorious sheen,

I am forever caught…

Life is the word for what I feel for you,

Serenity you bring to my mind,

Beats of joy you give my heart,

All this and much more, that makes me your part,

To know me, to woo me,

To bring that sparkle in my eyes,

You know that art…

Charm on my face, the twinkle in my eye,

Bloom in the season, without any reason,

A chapter in my life, emotions on the ultimate high,

Something that never happened before,

Life, I know, will never be the same…

You, your persona, your smile,

Something so special, something that stands out,

Makes me feel so close to you,

Sorrows and lows, I don’t mind,

Till the time you are with me,

A part of you, if forever I could be…

To forget you, I will never do,

To forget me, I leave it to you,

My love for you will never die,

Till the time life bids me goodbye…
I will always be there whenever you need me,

The dream of your life, if you let me be…

Smile till I login again :-)

Love???

Just one simple question to begin this post, have you ever sat and thought, "What is Love":-) I am sure almost all of you must have atleast once... So what were your respective answers... Well here is an account of the answers I have got on different occassions when I have simply asked myself, What does love mean... :-)

Love, a feeling, an emotion, an expression, a dream, a smile, an ecstasy... so many words yet an experience difficult to put into words.I sit back and think…The most splendid and beautiful emotion of life, love. How do I define it? Is it even possible to define this emotion which is so magnificent, so wonderful?

I look around and think of someone, who first made me feel special or made me feel "loved". I dig deep down memory lane; I am reminded of the days when my mother's tender touch made me feel "loved". Her concern, her care, and the way she would be anxious for me every passing moment even when she was not around. Those evenings come to my mind when I desperately waited at the gate for my loving mum to come home from work. That was my emotion, my "expression of love" for her. Although back then I was too immature to understand this feeling.

Similar were the moments when my dad brought home toys and chocolates to see an unending joy and smile on my face. The way he pampered me, the way he got upset and he still does when a tear trickles down my eye.
Those were the very first and most memorable times of my life, when I realized that I am "special, I am dear to someone and someone "selflessly loves" me.

I move ahead and flip across the pages of the most cherished chapters of my life... A phase of life that belongs to the beautiful flowers, which brighten the garden of my life forever, flowers called friends. I close my eyes to remember the games we played together, the pranks, the parties, the unending gossips, calls till the wee hours of morning, the struggle for marks, bunking classes, writing on desks, crushes so exciting, getting wet in the rains... there is so much that comes to my mind. Emotions and moments are a part of the very core of my heart. A helping hand that is always there for me, some absolutely amazing people who are just a call away. They are an integral part of me with whom I share every secret, every thought, every joy, and every sorrow. They mean "love" to me.

As I go through some of the most special and pleasing pictures of my life, I realize that there have been so many people around who "love" me. I lie down, relax and try to look in future... A future that promises peace, serenity and again "love"... Love of that someone so so special, love that I have never experienced before, love so new in its meaning, so magnificent in its existence. In the mirror of future I see the one with whom I will walk by the coming years of my life, forever & ever, till death parts us. Someone whose presence gives my life new dreams, a new meaning, a new dimension. Someone who gives me moments that make life more beautiful than ever before. That "someone" also means "love" to me...

Family, Friends, people who know me, who get to know my emotions even before I express them, all of them "love" me. Love, a feeling that has so many shades to it, an emotion that can not be associated with one single person or one single event. Love, it is something that cannot be categorized. We love our parents, friends, siblings, girlfriend, boyfriend, fiancée... the list is endless.

Love is an emotion that two people share who know each other's mind and heart, by simply looking at the other person's very first facial expression. Love is a connection between two hearts. Love is something that can only be expressed by the warmth of eyes, joy of a smile, a tender touch. Love is beyond we express, beyond we feel, and beyond we see. Love is someone who stands with you in the darkest hour of your life.
Life is difficult, full of trials, obstacles, ups and the downs, fears, pains and sorrows...."Love" makes life beautiful and worth living....

Feel the feeling of love and smile till I login again :-)

Are men shy or are they genetically inexpressive???

Hi guys, Sorry for the long-long break, but here I am, back again with something that has always fascinated me, the so-called male psyche in relationships. Most men complain that it’s the women who are complicated. But, some how, I am of the opinion that it isn’t either easy to understand men. It takes time, dedication, patience and nurturing lasting bonds before you get to the core of a man’s heart and mind, be it your father, brother, friend, husband, boyfriend. So taking this interesting topic ahead, let me today talk about something that all women must have felt at some time in their life. Are men really shy in expressing themselves, or is it they are just programmed to be so, quiet and inexpressive of their emotions in love.

Men are usually uneasy with relationships. When a man feels something for a woman, he takes a lot of time to come to terms with this feeling. At first there is dilemma to segregate love from lust since both are integral to a man’s psychology. Well, it is integral to female psychology also, but I believe a woman easily distinguish between the true love and a mere physical attraction or infatuation. Women are more intelligent, I guess:-) Jokes apart, men often can’t differentiate between subtle differences in variations of their own thoughts. So in such a state they have no option but to refrain from acceptance of the eternal truth of falling in love. Moreover, men usually try to find logic in everything even the emotions they experience, which is practically impossible. Emotions and logic doesn’t go hand in hand.:-)

It seems that genetically, beautiful sensitivities like love and emotions don’t really go well with the male: the chauvinist and impregnable version of a homo sapien. What is the reason behind men not being very indicative about their feelings for a woman, the woman who rule their minds, hearts and dreams. Is it fear, confusion, ego, nonchalance, or diffidence? The answer varies in content and extent from person to person. Men remain inexpressive of their inmost feelings for different reasons. Many of my male friends would agree, men are generally shy or hesitant when they propose the girl of their dreams for the first time. Many men try and act cool that it doesn’t really matter but the fact remains that it is not easy for any human being to accept rejection in any sphere of life. But for those who are already in a relationship, its not fear of rejection or diffidence. The extent to which they express largely depends on the level of seriousness and commitment involved. There are some who bear the notion that it’s not “manly” to be emotional. According to surveys, men who are emotional understand a woman better. But even an emotional man would not be as open and as good with words as a woman would be. For the simple reason, that they can't blabber, they cant repeat the same thing again and again in different ways, they just try to keep things SIMPLE.:-)

Different men have different circumstances and thus have different ways of their expression of love and affection. Some believe that it’s just the confusion that makes men less candid in love. Men are too engrossed in their usual boys stuff that they in most cases neither desire nor dare to look deep inside and ask themselves “ how deeply they feel for a girl”? Also, in some circumstances, pain from past changes the way someone  lives in the present and future. Life is unfair, relationships are queer, and ego multiplies the extent of complexity in love. And that can be another reason that stop men from being loud about their love interests. A lot of men are waiting for the fresh change where women take on the brave act of proposing. Women have always been asking for equal rights, so why don’t they rightfully play the part of initiating a relationship. Surveys show that guys adore and admire women making the first move. Well, no doubt we have quite an ample number of bold gals to answer back to such egoistic freaks. Times have changed and girls unapologetically and gracefully say “I do” before their man says so.

Last but not the least, we have the commitment phobic men. They fear expressing their love as expression strengthens a relation further and takes it a step nearer to commitment. So probably when we say men shy away, it’s like virtually saying they shy away from commitment, from responsibility and from solemnizing a relation with a strong and firm foundation. Men can commit to education, career, work and to hobbies and their passions, but when it comes to committing to a girl they get jitters that shake them to the core. Man-Woman relationship has always been a point of contention and it will remain so for many years to come. It is because this relation is so very dynamic; it has so many unpredictable and irrational dimensions. It is in simple words human behavior that changes each moment, each day. Women feel men are less expressive but may be it’s just in the relative sense, as men believe women are over expressive.:-)

There are questions in life that don’t have exact answers and when questions pertain to relationships, there can’t be any politically and emotionally correct ones. So for all those men out their who had been inexpressive in voicing their deepest emotions hidden inside the core of their heart, just know that faith makes all things possible and love makes all things easy. All you hot hunks, and cool guys out there just take it easy. If you have faith in your heart and love in your sight, just go ahead and bring the two together and say it, say it aloud to the girl of your dreams, to your fiancée, or even to the beautiful lady whom you married 10 years ago. The magic of those three golden word, ”I Love you” will fill your life with a new meaning each time you say them. So don’t shy away, just express, and express with a charm, with an attitude that sweeps your girl off her feet.

And for all you women out there, here’s a little piece of advice,

Men are strange creatures,
They’ll hate you; they’ll irritate you,
They’ll call you emotional fools,
They’ll tease you with stupid names,
They’ll deny you; they’ll defy you,
They can be shy or bold,
But their breaths are in your hold,
Beneath all fears, beneath all pretence,
The truth prevails; they cant live without you,
Yes, indeed, Oh! Woman, the man is incomplete without you!!!

So try understanding your man and smile till I login again :-)

Deceptive Emotions..

Moving in the paths of life,
I came across a face,
chasing the dreams of life,
I noticed a smile,
as life ceased for a while...

Those innocent eyes and the infectious smile,
the charm so pleasing,
thoughts and words, all so amazing,
the genuineness of every expression,
emotions full of love and affection,
so true and tender in every action...

Oh! so unfortunate was the day, I met you,
something that I admired,
was just the appearance,
what lay ahead was a menace...

Appearances are deceptive, how true,
I realised when I met you,
someone who appeared so full of life,
was so hollow and empty inside,
never judge from the looks I learnt,
your gestures left my heart hurt...

Emotions and feelings I felt for me,
a friend forever, to be,
care and concern as far I could see,
a mere fantasy it was,
leaving behind harsh scars...

People come and go,
to move on is what I know,
blanking out the past,
carrying forward memories to treasure,
to come across some, is a nightmare,
to meet a few, is a pleasure,
to go on, move on,
be at peace in mind and heart, is life's art...